My Dream:
I'm not exactly sure where it started, either because it wasn’t important enough or I was too distracted by a certain someone to remember where I was and when. But what I do remember is watching a movie with Junsu, Xiah of DBSK. I was curled up right next to him, my head on his chest I. The warmth of his body made me feel cozy and his breathing which I could slightly feel against my face made me feel…special. This certain movie was starring all the members and me as well. All I can remember about that movie is that I was proud of my acting skills and the way my boys did. The rest is simply a blur. Then Junsu and I headed into a club/party. He waved to the guards; they let us past right away, and brought me to a private room. He handed me this outfit, the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. It was a dress that shined like the sun and every time I’d move in the slightest way, the crystals would sparkle. He told me that he had picked this out especially for me, because to him, I was like this dress, unique, bright, and captured everyone’s attention. He then leaned in and whispered in my ear, “You’re my sun, and you need to shine just like it.” I was in shock. The dress no doubt cost a fortune and with his current position, how could he be willing to do this….for me? He took me by the hand and led me out into a room full of guests. The light shined upon my face and I could feel everyone’s attention upon us, envying, jealous, and enchanted. He let go of my hand and walked up to the stage where a solo microphone was. He put his hands on the microphone and then turned his head to face me, spotlight shining on him. He flashed a smile and thanked everyone for coming. Everyone clapped in response, he then signaled everyone to stop. ‘The reason you are all here today is,” His eyes traveled to me; “I’d like to introduce you all to someone very special to me.” One by one, all their eyes left Junsu and landed on me. Without breaking eye contact “She is the reason why I’m here to this day. Sharon Wei, she is my sun. Without her, nothing in my world can grow or live, without her, everything dies. She shines so brightly and leaves everyone she comes in contact with a smile. And I believe that is her biggest weapon, her smile. For that smile, it’s different that all others. That smile can change the world. I’m a living example.” He chuckled, eyes still on me. My cheeks were glowing and my heart beat at a rapid beat. “That is why you’re all brought here today. I want to introduce her to everyone important to me. Most of all, I want all of you including her to know that …….” His twinkling eyes looked into my soul, “I love you.” He smiled. Before I had time to relax, I heard the piano play a soft harmony. Wait, I know this song. It sure sounds a lot like the first song I sang for Xiah. The one I wrote for my knight in shining amour that would soon come. The one that took me months to write only to be quickly rejected by SM. This song got me through my hardest times, times when I thought I wouldn’t make it. My eyes filled with tears, he still remembered this song yet I only sang it for him once. I took slow steps up to the stage, everyone moved so that I would have a straight path to Junsu and the microphone in his hands. I stepped up onto the stage and walked until I’m next to his side. He smiles and tipped the microphone towards me. My eyes smile back and I take a hold on it. My lips automatically say the words; my voice automatically sings the melody, these I had never forgotten and never would. Junsu joined me blending beautiful notes into this already perfect song. When the song ended, I couldn’t hear anything, not the applause, not the people yelling for an encore, but I ran into Xiah’s arms burying my head in his chest. All I could hear were his soft words, “Sharon, you’re my girl, forever and ever.” He chuckled and whipped away my tears “My my, how easily you cry. Baby, you’ll ruin your make up. You transformed from an angel into a panda bear.” I giggle and playfully smack his arm. ‘Hey at least I don’t have a ducky butt.” He laughs his high pitched laugh. “That was a low blow” and then sticks out his butt. “Yunho told me that a big butt on guys is very fashionable now, he says I look handsome.” I smile. “Okay, okay, fine. You look handsome.” He lifts his chin up high, eyes sparkling. Then he lowered his head again and looked into his eyes. I could feel heat rising to my cheeks, my hearting beating hard in my chest, waiting for his next words. “But, the thing is you’re my angel. You’re my sun. And you’re my panda bear.” Before I could protest, his arm wrapped around my waist pulling me close to him and his lips touched mine……..