3/22/10：When People Leave

When people leave, I’m left with emptiness in my heart. No matter who they were, if they were a part of my life and then suddenly they’re gone, I’ll be depressed for sure. Why did I start thinking of this? Hmmmm, I’ll let you know.

The story begins with a woman named Gloria and her boyfriend (idk his English name). They were driving to Green Bay from Michigan and I’m not sure exactly what the details are, but they got into a car accident. Her boyfriend got out of it without a scratch but for Gloria, she wasn’t that lucky. She apparently was on the side where the car crashed and also where the most damage was, leaving her in a coma. Without anyone to go to, my family and I found them. Again, I’m not sure how, I believe it was God’s plan for us to meet them and them to meet us. While she was in her coma, my mother and I visited very often. After the amount of ten days, things weren’t looking that good for Gloria who was also pregnant. The baby and her mother were living on a machine and all we witnesses could do was pray. One day, a miracle happened. Gloria awoke, and my heart warmed up again. At first she couldn’t remember who she was, but the doctors, my family, Gloria’s family, and I were hopeful that she would regain her knowledge. After a couple of weeks she seemed the way she used to be. I was so happy; it was truly a miracle, bringing a girl and her baby son back from death. But when she came back, I could feel this distance between us. My family and I were outsiders. When they left that time there was no pain because I didn’t know them.
Last week and this week they came to stay at our house to come get check up exams from her doctor. At first, it was awkward. As if we never knew each other in the first place. I believe the reason for that was because they felt like they owed my family something. This kept us from really connecting during the first few days. But slowly and slowly they began to learn more about me and we began to connect. We’d have long conversations talking about anything that was brought up. Our relationship improved by each hour and eventually we became very close. We’d spend nights playing poker; laughter filled the air, smiles were permanently put onto our faces, and we would stuff out mouths with fruits and foods of all kind. They left today in the morning before I woke up. Suddenly I felt so empty; my house too big, too quiet and the dinning table was not full for the first time in what seemed like months. The more I think about it, the more I miss them. Now there’s no one to meet me at the door when I get home and ask about how my day was. Now there’s no one to take the time to cook especially low fat food for me because I want to loose weight. Now there are no long talks at the table after dinner. Now all I can hear is the echo of my own sole voice. Its funny how when people that you never thought you’d get close leave you one day. And suddenly you realize how much they meant to you. The part in your lives where they used to be is suddenly empty. I’m always like this. I put people so close to my heart, and when change occurs such as someone leaving, I don’t know what to do. I hate it when people leave me because I’m always left behind. I do miss them a lot. And hopefully in the future our families will meet again. As for now, I hope for the best for this lovely family. They’ve really brought me a lot of joy and happiness. I’m truly blessed to be able to have had them in my life. May God be with them and fill their future will smiles, hope, and grace.

Ever had someone like this in your life? Someone that originally you thought you wouldn’t like but ended up loving? Did they end up leaving? And if so, did you feel the same way I did?
With much love,
Sharon Wei..